Lucky 8 Ball

I just do not know how I break today when playing 8 ball with Tommy. I was breaking fine for all the rack till this particular rack. I was so happy with the breaking sound and the ball spread. Then I notice the 8 ball rowing down towards the right corner pocket. I kinda freak out. I was hoping it won't enter as Tommy would automatically win the game. I just watch hopelessly as the ball really row all the way into the pocket =.=

You should see how happy Tommy was that time =.= I lost due to entering the 8 ball on the break. How come I can't have the 9 ball pocketed when playing 9 ball so that I can be the winner =.= Damn!!!

A Pain that is Haunting Me

I hardly pour out anything personal here. But today, it is different. From all the post that are posted, you see a bright side of me. But deep inside, I'm not a very happy person as I have a personality clash. I try to be someone that people like, to be someone who is looked up upon and respected but I'm actually a no one.

Running from the truth is painful and hard. I have been running and hiding for the past 6 years. In these 6 years, I have gone through a lot of unhappy situation where I change from someone good to someone bad. My life and happiness only revolve around one person. In order to keep this person beside me, I took control of everything to ensure that person do not leave me. I kept making the same mistake but each time, I try harder to control more. In the end what do I have, a very horrible attitude and being a very sick person.

Little do people know that I'm suffering inside due to my own doings. It hurts most when people tell me that I would not change. I can't make any promises that I will change or can change. But all I know and keep telling myself is that I have to change. I have to bring back the real me. Along the process of it, I have to learn to love myself and see life in a different angle.

It isn't easy at all. Endless night crying. Endless battle with myself which mentally tired me off. But no one sees that other than myself. I'm trying to find back myself, but I do not know if I change or not. All my energy and focus is push to find back myself and to face back myself. The acceptance of myself is very important for me to find my way back. Along the way, it isn't easy as I face more hardship which put me to the test. All I can tell myself is to stay strong and focus on accepting myself. And I really pray hard that I can accept and love myself like how I did 8 years back.

Woon Shen's Sister's Pre-Wedding

Firstly have to congratulate Woon Shen's sister and secondly thanking Woon Shen for inviting me for his sister's pre-wedding function. Unfortunately, only me, Elaine and Charlson went that night as the others were not free. Surprisingly, this is the first time we didn't get lost finding our way to his house ^_^

When we arrive, the first thing I saw was the Fat Man's Lok Lok truck ^_^ Yummy. Once we went down, we greet the soon-to-be bride and Woon Shen and his family before attacking the Lok Lok truck. Oh man, it was good standing there eating lok lok before sitting down at the table. Once seated, Woon Shen then told us to help ourselves with the buffet style food. There was a lot of food and from a variety of style.

I remember Elaine eating the Tom Yam bee hoon non-stop. She loves it so much that I can't remember how many times she went and help herself to it even after she told us she is full =.= After a filling meal, Woon Shen then offer each one of us a can of beer. By that time, Wai Yee and another of Woon Shen's high school friend came. We then drank some beer and chat there. After finishing one can, I help myself to another can but then I realize that I'm a bit high already. When I finish my can of beer, it was about 11++pm and we excuse ourselves to go home.

After wishing congrats again to the bride and also to the family, we head back. But I didn't really head back. Charlson was nice enough to drop me in Midvalley to meet up with Tommy who was waiting for me there. In a drunk mode there, we stayed there a while before heading to Rack cafe to play pool =.= That is how I end my night ^_^